I Am The Decider
July 9th, 2009
I have totally been PMS-ing. Okay, I know “syndrom-ing” is not really a word, but then again – this is my blog and I am the decider. So it’s now official - here at Bacon Is My Enemy “PMS-ing” is a most reasonable word to use to describe the state that I am in right now.
“Grrrrr” works too.
But, back on topic: I AM SOOO P-M-S-ING.
Over the last three days I have had intense cravings for things like bread and chocolate. Not necessarily together, but at this point I would absolutely feel justified in saying that toast and nutella fit snugly between fruits and vegetables on the food pyramid. Right next to chocolate croissants? RIGHT?? You with me?
Oh bother. Who am I trying to kid? I feel fat and bloated. Don’t worry, this is not a pity party “I feel so fat and bloated” comment. Rather, I quite literally FEEL fat and bloated. My feet are swollen like I am 9 months pregnant and my fingers feel like plumped up Jimmy Dean sausage links. Like right now? I feel like I am typing with fingers that have no joints. Just try typing without bending your fingers, it’s really hard. Go ahead. TYPE LIKE YOU CANT BEND YOUR FINGERS AND YOU’LL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. See? I have to suffer through all-CAPS because it’s easier to just type like you are barreling through a sentence.
I know, we all have those days or string of days. For me? I actually broke down and had a bowl of spaghetti and some garlic toast. And some chocolate mousse with some white chocolate shavings. And you know what? It was delicious. It really was. But now I feel like complete shit. Not mentally, but physically. I feel all sorts of messed up. Like I am coming down off of crack. Not that I would know what the downside of a crack high is like, but I am the decider, so I decide what euphemisms I am going to use.
Anyway, I don’t feel guilty about going AWOL on the diet. But man oh man. I feel like crap. I think I mentioned, I’ve been on a (mostly) Gluten-Free diet as of late. I do not have a wheat allergy or celiac or anything like that, it’s just something I wanted to try as part of my “I’m going to be healthy and lose weight schtick.” As a result, over the past few weeks I have never felt better in my life. Limiting the dairy, sugar and bread has really stabilized my blood sugar levels and all those gastrointestinal side effects of eating those types of foods? Gone. Really. Ask Paige.
So that spaghetti and chocolate mousse I had? Well I definitely “felt” my blood sugar spike and then crash. I don’t think I noticed how eating those foods effected me before because I have never taken a protracted break from them. It’s like I hit the reset button on my body and now I am really getting to know how foods make my body feel.
So did I lose weight this week?
Uh no.
In fact, I was a gainer. Like 3 lbs. I know.
Which means that I am back up to 174 lbs. Very, very frustrating. It is fretful but I am reminded of how much I need to push myself further. And how I really shouldn’t eat spaghetti and garlic bread right before I weigh myself. And that water is not always a friend. Just ask my sausage fingers.
PS. No photo update. My trusty camera has finally died. I have had my G6 for about 6 years or so. I’ve dropped it more times than I would like to admit. People make fun of it all of the time because it is so big and clunky. But whatever. It was a good girl.
But here’s a little diddy from 1996:
Yes those are blond streaks. I am the decider. Sometimes the decider of bad hair decisions.
Tags: Weight Loss, weight loss stats
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