Britches Getting Tighter, Not Looser
A couple of days ago (after I posted a coconut cream pie recipe) a fellow blogger named Tony commented on my post saying something along the lines of, “Hey! Hey you! Remember your New Year’s resolution to lose weight? Remember you were on CNN? How you used to wax poetic about how this was your year to follow your dream? What happened to THAT GIRL? FRAUD! FRAUD!”
Okay, maybe he didn’t say that EXACTLY, but the net affect was the same. It jolted me into WTF mode. Like WTF am I doing? Or WhereTF do I want to go? And good Lord, my britches are tight again and that I haven’t weighed myself nor gone to the gym in AGES. At this juncture, I know that this is a problem of the soul, but it’s showing up on my ass.
Looking back over this past year, I realize that I can make every excuse in the book – my aunt & uncle died, my house went to shit, I got depressed, I moved, got a job, etc. etc. etc. But the truth of the matter is that I did it again – I put myself last on the list. All the promises of earlier in the year kind of went sideways. I didn’t keep the momentum going. I lost 20 pounds and I gained 10 back. In fact, I gained 10 lbs back in the last 2 months. I weighed myself this morning and the scale said something like one-hundred and eighmm-harrumph-haraumph. Okay – 184. But in my defense, I was holding a coconut cream pie while on the scale. Seriously, I think that muffin top is really made out of coconut cream pie.
So, ummm, yeah. What now?
Well, the old Giyen might have said something like, “Oh God. Well, lets take the pressure off and wait till New Year’s to start dieting again. It’s 2 weeks from now and visions of sugar plums are within my grasp, goddammit. Let the holiday feasting begin!”
But that old Giyen is dead. I am really, really tired of being overweight and tired of this conversation. I am going to start up again today. No time like the present to commit to making a change for the better. If I slip up, then so be it. I know that there will be the Tony’s of the world to give me a gentle nudging to get me back on track.
Thanks, man.
PS. If you want to be inspired, check out Tony’s weight loss story here.
This entry was posted on Monday, December 14th, 2009 at 10:30 am and is filed under Daily, Weight Updates. Both comments and pings are currently closed.
It’s so hard, isn’t it? I wish I could lose weight on credit. Just make me thin, first, and I’ll eat well and exercise for the rest of my life! I swear!!!
I’ve lost 15 pounds simply by watching what I eat and keeping track of calories on Livestrong.com (formerly the daily plate) and keeping under the recommended calories per day for how much I weigh, how tall I am, and how much I want to lose (1.5 pounds/week). There are lots of charts. Charts help me.
I’m below 200 for the first time since I got pregnant 5 years ago this month. 15 pounds down – 55 to go.
Well begun is half done, right?
Anyway, give Livestrong a try. Sparkpeople.com is good, too. Just stay out of the forums – people are effing crazy in the forums. Both are free.
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I was curious about that, but I wasn’t interesting in asking like Tony was — you posted a coconut cream pie recipe, and I was drooling. Good for you for getting back on the band wagon! And now? I’ll be joining you. I have 25lbs of postpartum weight to get rid of (maybe 30-35lbs if I’m feeling ambitious enough). It’s going to be a long, hard road filled with Christmas cookies, turkey, roast beef, stuffing, mashed potatoes, pies, eggnog, apple cider, hot cocoa, and… oh my goodness, Giyen, we’re in so much trouble!
Oh I so understand you! It seems like it just sneaks up on you. I really appreciate people who tell me when I gain weight. I know that it sounds crazy but it is the best reality check. good luck girl!
It’s difficult, immensely difficult, to remain focused and balance on this teeter-totter called life. One starts off genuinely focused on a “life altering” goal — yet there are always those “cell phone ringers”. Y’know — you’re conversing with someone and then “ring ring” you gotta take this call — those things in life that distract you. They can be annoying or they can be very necessary … but they’re all taking focus from the goal. Next thing you know, TIME has quickly passed by and you realize, “CRAP! It’s been THAT long already?”
Happens to all of us hon. You’re definitely not a failure. Just know that you can take this one day at a time. No need to look at 12 months from now. Each day is a battle as much as it is unpredictable. I’m with you, hon … journeying through each moment one victory at a time. In time the battles will evolve into joyous celebrations … and I’m talkin’ beyond the weight thang.
I WANT to lose weight. I need to lose weight. I also need a little thing called ‘will power.’ It’s in mighty short supply around the holidays. I’ll wish you well and then join you on the scales in January.
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You know I heart you and your blog!!!!
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I don’t think that you’ve put yourself last. I think you’ve made some major decisions this year that are going to allow you to take better care of yourself and make yourself a priority. Taking care of your soul will make it much easier to take care of your body.
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So….I’m waiting for a weigh in complete with picture documentation!!
I just got back on track with my eating last week after realizing that I’d plateaued for an entire year!!! And I’m sooo close to my goal weight, I can taste it (obviously, because I kept eating whatever the heck I wanted).
Though the cold has affected my exercise, I’m not letting it hold me back. And I’m NOT waiting for the beginning of the year. The sooner I get this weight off, the sooner I can stop worrying about it!
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You can do it! Hop back on the wagon. You’re lucky to have a friend like that, because most people WANT you to be fat! And by you, I mean me. Sorry, I’m projecting. BUT YOU CAN DO IT!
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So I had to read the title of this entry about 3 times before I realized it said Britches and not B*tches. Either way, you are still down 10 lbs and just need to get back in the weight loss groove. You can do it!!
I so feel your pain! I have been working really hard to get my weight off and it is very easy to just say I’ll eat this and tomorrow I will be good. I am glad you are not waiting till the first of the year. You can do it girl! You are dedicated because if you weren’t you wouldn’t care.
It’s so easy to forget to eat healthy and exercise. You’re reacting excellently to it though. It’s useless to punish oneself, resolving to get back on the wagon and doing it is all you can do. I myself recently decided I didn’t care if it was the holidays and I’d be missing out on delicious holiday food. I’m sick of being overweight and there’s no time like the present to be what you want to be.
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How rude! I really despise it when people are all judgmental about weight and weight loss. As for diet: I have found that staying thin is more about exercising than changing my diet. I exercise so I can eat chocolate. That’s the truth.
Try not to stress too much. You’ll do it. Give yourself a break. (And block Tony from posting on your blog! LOL)
I understand what you are going through. I was only able to commit to it when I turned 29 and had my personal WTF moment..as in I have to get this done so I could move onto more finer goals in my 30s. I lost 25 pounds total in 7 months, but have to say that maintaining it has been just as hard, especially right around holidays. I wish you the best of luck, and you have the right attitude. It is OK to fall off the wagon. Just get back on it and keep on trucking, girlfriend.
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Nice looking blog you have here. The theme is awesome, great color combination.