Wednesday, February 4th, 2009
During difficult times some people turn to God. I turn to astrology.
- I have a lovely daughter who challenges me to be a better person.
- I have a passion, it’s called writing.
- I have really wonderful friends like “the Coven” and Rene.
- I have the best blog readers in the world and consider all of you friends of some sort too.
- And I feel amazed that some of you wrote to me to tell me something nice.
- I have a lot of gratitude for those writers who have helped me, inspired me and made me laugh. You guys know who you are.
- I am grateful for not being afraid to fail anymore.
- I am happy that I reconnected with my cousin in Portland.
- And my friends Melissa and Andrea.
- I am glad that I have siblings. Even though we don’t talk and are estranged for the most part.
- I am thankful for an abundance of work, when some people have no work at all.
- I am blessed with incredible luck.
- Amazed that doing a little video blog like Momversation could help me get over my fear of the camera and help me to get over my self-image issues.
- Feeling lucky that I got to take some time off to figure out what direction to go in.
- Thankful that I own a house in a city where it’s really expensive to own a house.
- And most of the time I am glad that it’s small because it means that there is less to clean.
- Thankful to be entering into a “renaissance period” with my daughter.
- Even though I am still out of shape, my body keeps getting stronger and I keep getting less winded. This is awesome.
- Grateful for those people who leave magazines like US Weekly and InTouch at the gym so I can escape the reality once in a while.
- Feeling that my heart is becoming whole, after being broken for a long time.
- Can’t get over the fact that I am actually glad that I had a difficult childhood because I draw from that strength ALL OF THE TIME.
- I am blessed with a vivid imagination.
- And I can draw.
- And paint. Though I don’t do it enough.
- I am glad that the Internet exists. There was no such thing as a blog 10 or so years ago. (more…)
Tags: astrology, gratitude
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
At the beginning of each year I write down an enormous list of New Year’s resolutions that is so beastly that I get depressed at the end of the year when I only cross out the two or three things that I actually accomplished. This year, I think I am going to take Nataly Kogan’s advice and start making my “resolutions” more positive, manageable and realistic. Nataly used to be a resolution list maker like me, but is now reformed and has stopped:
“Trying to fix something that I am pretty sure is not fixable … I am fairly certain that I will never have a flat stomach so after 33 years of life I’ve stopped making this a goal.”
At the end of each year Nataly also takes an inventory of things that she is thankful for or feels proud about. I think this is a fine plan. Here’s my go at it.
28 Things In 2008
- Made a resolution to change.
- Started earning more than I ever have in my entire life.
- Quit that job because it made me terribly unhappy.
- Took some time off.
- Began a journey of self-discovery that didn’t involve religion, a guru or psychedelic drugs.
- Survived the emotional spin cycle from a suicide attempt of a person who is close to our family.
- Took a job because I was scared about the future but then quit that job in less than 90 days because I realized that ordinary is no longer palatable.
- Stopped feeling bad or guilty about making mistakes.
- Got diagnosed with hypertension and prescribed medication for it. Told the doctor that I would rather make lifestyle changes before taking pharmaceuticals. Actually started making those lifestyle changes.
- Took some more time off.
- Started blogging because I needed a creative outlet. Kept blogging because I love it.
- Pleasantly surprised when people started reading my blog. As of this moment I’ve had 4,645 unique visitors, 6,489 visits and 11,983 pageviews since October 3rd. Woohoo!
- Started saying “yes” to people, situations, things, experiences.
- Learned how to communicate better with my daughter.
- Cried with my daughter when we saw our President get elected.
- Protested Proposition 8 along side my kid.
- Took a picture of myself and tried looking at it without being critical of all the flaws.
- Took more pictures of myself and now feel somewhat endeared to seeing the changes in my face as I become happier.
- Actually got hired to participate in a video blogging panel with other kick ass bloggers.
- Was proud that I actually accepted the video blogging assignment given that #17 was so hard.
- Realized that I accept myself as I am right now, this very second.
- Realized that life doesn’t stop and wait for you to be the perfect weight. It just keeps going and can pass you by if you wait till things are perfect.
- Began to “pray” about things in a nonreligious sort of way.
- Started a new gratitude practice. Which by the way, THANK YOU FOR READING MY BLOG. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
- Started seeing exercise as a lifesaver instead of something just negative and awful.
- Believes that I can fall in love for all the right reasons this time.
- Believes that my dreams can actually come true.
- Realizes that I am the one that I’ve been waiting for.
Tags: gratitude, Midthirties Crisis, Milestones, nataly kogan, work it mom
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Sunday, November 9th, 2008
Friday’s dining excursion made me reminisce about of this picture of me (age 4) with our feathered friend the pigeon – a.k.a. dinner. Here I am feeding the pigeons. Now the pigeons are feeding me. My how things have changed. (more…)
Tags: achieving goals, astrology, astrology predictions, change, gratitude, jeff jawer, pigeons, rick levine
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