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Am I Delusional?

Friday, November 14th, 2008

Today I asked a prominent blogger & author (who I admire very much) if she had any advice about transitioning my career from nonprofit to freelance writing. Her reply:

“Go back to philanthropy!! Before you start to like it here!! It doesn’t earn a living, let me tell you …”

This of course sent shivers down my spine because I gave up the security of 9 to 5 job for love and a laptop. Self-love, that is. Self-preservation. Over the last 14 years I had been so focused on making everyone else happy that I didn’t have anything left for myself. I know I am not alone in this feeling. In fact, I believe that I have just described how 85% of all mothers feel. (Another 10% are on medication and don’t feel anything at all.)

These days, instead of getting whatever leftover time there is in the day, I have become fanatical about time for me! me! me! I am addicted to writing. I am now an idea factory. I have so many projects that I want to work on that I don’t have time for them all. My house is a mess. I have no idea where all the spoons went. I am not the least bit curious about that weird odor in my laundry room. My car could use an oil change. And, for all intents and purposes, next month could be a complete financial catastrophe if I don’t start hunkering down.

So yesterday I heard the word “yes” and today I hear the words “go back.” Life is so confusing sometimes I double down in nausea because of the uncertainty. Am I delusional? Is there such a thing as a happy medium? Can we have it all?

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Living Out Loud

Saturday, November 1st, 2008

I think it’s so brave when people live their lives out in the open – exposing all their goodness and messiness for everyone to see.  It’s not that these people don’t care about what other people think … it’s just that they are propelled to do things despite what other people think.  I used to think that I was like that in my 20s, but I now realize that it was just youthful exuberance and foolhardiness masked as confidence or assuredness. I’ve never been at this place before (that not giving a shit about what other people think place). It’s freeing. (more…)

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