Thursday, July 9th, 2009
I have totally been PMS-ing. Okay, I know “syndrom-ing” is not really a word, but then again – this is my blog and I am the decider. So it’s now official - here at Bacon Is My Enemy “PMS-ing” is a most reasonable word to use to describe the state that I am in right now.
“Grrrrr” works too.
But, back on topic: I AM SOOO P-M-S-ING.
Over the last three days I have had intense cravings for things like bread and chocolate. Not necessarily together, but at this point I would absolutely feel justified in saying that toast and nutella fit snugly between fruits and vegetables on the food pyramid. Right next to chocolate croissants? RIGHT?? You with me?
Oh bother. Who am I trying to kid? I feel fat and bloated. Don’t worry, this is not a pity party “I feel so fat and bloated” comment. Rather, I quite literally FEEL fat and bloated. My feet are swollen like I am 9 months pregnant and my fingers feel like plumped up Jimmy Dean sausage links. Like right now? I feel like I am typing with fingers that have no joints. Just try typing without bending your fingers, it’s really hard. Go ahead. TYPE LIKE YOU CANT BEND YOUR FINGERS AND YOU’LL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. See? I have to suffer through all-CAPS because it’s easier to just type like you are barreling through a sentence.
I know, we all have those days or string of days. For me? I actually broke down and had a bowl of spaghetti and some garlic toast. And some chocolate mousse with some white chocolate shavings. And you know what? It was delicious. It really was. But now I feel like complete shit. Not mentally, but physically. I feel all sorts of messed up. Like I am coming down off of crack. Not that I would know what the downside of a crack high is like, but I am the decider, so I decide what euphemisms I am going to use.
Anyway, I don’t feel guilty about going AWOL on the diet. But man oh man. I feel like crap. I think I mentioned, I’ve been on a (mostly) Gluten-Free diet as of late. I do not have a wheat allergy or celiac or anything like that, it’s just something I wanted to try as part of my “I’m going to be healthy and lose weight schtick.” As a result, over the past few weeks I have never felt better in my life. Limiting the dairy, sugar and bread has really stabilized my blood sugar levels and all those gastrointestinal side effects of eating those types of foods? Gone. Really. Ask Paige.
So that spaghetti and chocolate mousse I had? Well I definitely “felt” my blood sugar spike and then crash. I don’t think I noticed how eating those foods effected me before because I have never taken a protracted break from them. It’s like I hit the reset button on my body and now I am really getting to know how foods make my body feel.
So did I lose weight this week?
Uh no.
In fact, I was a gainer. Like 3 lbs. I know.
Which means that I am back up to 174 lbs. Very, very frustrating. It is fretful but I am reminded of how much I need to push myself further. And how I really shouldn’t eat spaghetti and garlic bread right before I weigh myself. And that water is not always a friend. Just ask my sausage fingers.
PS. No photo update. My trusty camera has finally died. I have had my G6 for about 6 years or so. I’ve dropped it more times than I would like to admit. People make fun of it all of the time because it is so big and clunky. But whatever. It was a good girl.
But here’s a little diddy from 1996:
Yes those are blond streaks. I am the decider. Sometimes the decider of bad hair decisions.
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Thursday, June 11th, 2009
Last weekend was so busy that I needed a weekend to recover from my weekend (you might have noticed that I haven’t posted in a week). Time has been flying past me as of late and I am definitely ready to feel the laziness of summer drift into my psyche to slow things down just a bit.
Paige is out on a 5 day backpacking trek to the Olympic Pennisula this week. And me? The visions I had of having a week filled with adult activity is completely lost on me. I wanted to go out to eat every night and sleep in every morning. Instead, I have been having trouble sleeping and feel completely wasted during the day. I am getting over it though. It’s just so quiet in the house without her.
Good news to report though, I’ve lost another 2 lbs and am kind of inspired by it. I actually think that I could be at the 20 lb loss marker by the end of the month. I might do a touchdown dance if that happens.
Er, maybe not.
**Quick update**
I thought it would be nice to remind you (and myself) where I started off this year:
Click here to see all of my weight loss photos on Flickr. Slow and steady wins the race.
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Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
Summer in Seattle is so incredibly beautiful that it makes you wonder why you even consider living anywhere else but here. Though it isn’t summer yet, we have been blessed with such incredible weather this past week that I’ve had a hard time concentrating on doing anything else but marvel at that bright shiny orb in the middle of a sky.
I used to dread this time of year – mostly because it meant that I was going to be hot. Physically hot, not HAWT! If you are overweight, you know exactly what I mean. While the rest of the world is walking around in flouncy skirts and spaghetti strapped dresses, you are trying to figure out if your cap sleeves are strategically hitting your upper arms so that your bat-wings don’t look too menacing. You are miserable in your long sleeves and pants.
In years past I used to get completely self-conscious about summer. This year however, the hot weather is like a breath of fresh air. I think in part, because I am spending a lot of time working on my attitude. Instead of fantasizing about where I could be (if it were not for …) or how much time I’ve wasted over the years – I am now concentrating on what I can do to change things in the present. Not tomorrow, not 6 months from now, but what can I do right now to impact the things that I want to change?
I’ve spent a lot of the time playing out scenarios in my head, without ever accomplishing anything in “real” life. Nowadays the time spent imagining how life could be is being devoted to actually doing something instead. Goals used to look something like this: “I am going to lose 70 lbs by summer!” These days it’s more along the lines of: “I am going to lose 2 lbs this week.” I’ve found that the latter works much better for me and is way less intimidating than trying to tackle the big sweeping mandates I’ve created for myself in the past.
So this past week I’ve accomplished some small things to make my life a little better right now:
- Created a monthly budget (as a guide)
- Ditched Quicken and started using a simple check register again
- Reduced my exercise goals to 3 times a week (if I exercise more, then yay!)
- Went to bed on time
- Assembled a bookshelf that I bought for my living room
- Started drinking more water
- Planned out my meals for the week
- Took a glucose tolerance test
- Rode the bus into work more often than not
And although each one of those things are in and of itself small and seemingly inconsequential – together they amount to a series of tiny revolutions towards achieving those big expansive goals that I have for myself. All of those small actions subconsciously tells me that I am going somewhere. And for now, I won’t worry so much about the final destination. I am just going to work on the journey getting there.
And though I am not fond of poetry, lately I’ve been reciting this one in my head:
Speech to the Young: Speech to the Progress-Toward
By Gwendolyn Brooks
Say to them,
say to the down-keepers,
the sun-slappers,
the self-soilers,
the harmony-hushers,
“even if you are not ready for day
it cannot always be night.”
You will be right.
For that is the hard home-run.
Live not for battles won.
Live not for the-end-of-the-song.
Live in the along.
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